<~> Chapter 179It took some time for all of us to e to our senses after our shared asms. Ohe afterglow had worn off I realized that all of us had let our lustful aura get out of trol again, that expined why Theo and Man had been so affected by the show they couldn't stop themselves from masturbating until the six of us had calmed down. Man seemed a little mortified she had done so while sitting right o our temporary magic teacher, doubly so because she wasn't ied in men.

  Theo was normally pretty fident in his sexuality but the forced arousal by our bined auras had shaken him a little. It probably didn't help that his scks were now soaked with cum...

  roup spent some time ing up and ging bato our clothes and armor before preparing for ht watch. Since we all knew about the succubi now, I chose to keep my wings and spade-tail free for now. I couldn't wear any of my clothes or armor in my rger form but I could at least leave my wings and tail out as long as I didn't wear my chest piece. I realized that I probably o let them out from time to time, they felt unfortable when I did release them if I kept hiding them for too long. I wasn't sure how often I would get the ce we reached the city so I better take advantage of the freedom now.

  Cecilia was out of ission, her first experience as a succubus owerful enough to knock her right out afterward. Since succubi didn't need much sleep we split up the night watches so that the non-succubi wouldn't have to stay up. That meaing Torien and Silva sleep till m. With Cecilia included in the secret, we didn't o hide that kind of thing from her anymore and could be a little more effit with our sleep times, which would be nice going forward. Bel had taken Man to our shared tent ao lie down with her until it was time to take over for me.

  I climbed on top of our carriage to watch out for monsters. I spread out a rge zone of [Fireflies] to gently light up the surroundings without being too disruptive to everyone sleeping. While this road was a lot safer than the ones on the frontier, we still o keep a watch through the night. Monsters were still out and about and we could see them go by from time to time. At least they didn't charge roup in huge he way they did when arked ons outside of town when we had stopped outside of Norta.

  After sitting there for quite a while my mind started to drift. I thought back to that st transformation session. When I had shifted into my rger form I had felt more... wild. I don't think I noticed when it happened but I had felt really possessive of Cecilia, which wasn't like me. I liked her sure but she wasn't in my inner circle the same way the others were, it felt odd to feel that way about her. My true form wasn't influeng my thoughts, was it? Had I just gotten so caught up in the moment that I went with my instincts? It could have evehe lust aura the six of us were giving off, we had lost trol of that tonight.

  My thoughts were interrupted by a e-looking mohat was stalking through the grass toward on as. I would have to hahis one, unfortunately I don't have many ranged options so I would have to go fight it up close. It was alone, I would have been able to spot them in the grass if there had been more than one so I doubt it's worth waking the others over this.

  I jumped down a my wings ease my fall. I hadn't had many opportuo experiment with them yet but after gliding away from the colpsing building I didn't hesitate, it's not like it was that long of a fall anyway.

  I looked down at the monster and thought all the way back to the first time I saw a bone dog, the first monster I had ever killed. The e monster looked simir but this one was more like a normal dog, albeit with a strangely proportioned body. Its shoulders were rge and it had a smaller than normal head. It had small spikes on its back leading to a rather long tail and its front legs had nasty-looking cws.

  The dog jumped at me the moment I touched the ground, I wasn't sure if it realized I had spotted it or if it was just taking what it thought was an easy opportunity. I stepped out of its pound cast [Bde Waltz] on myself for the added speed and footwork bonus. The monster was fast but I had been quickly gaining experiend fidence fighting the st few weeks. My bde grazed it and I took the opportunity to cast [Melee Hex], it wasn't super debilitating but it made the monster make more mistakes, slide in the dirt, and trip over its ow.

  I started w in some casts of [Light Ward]. The monster wasn't very threatening so it was a good opportunity to practice using the new spell I was less familiar using. Every time it sshed at me I would use a faintly glowing panel of light to block its attacks. After I got used to doing that in tandem with attag I started using the panel of gss offensively. I started to pce them in inve spots for the monster and bined with [Melee Hex] the monster had trouble stopping itself from tripping.

  After a particurly bad fumble, I stepped forward and sshed off its head. The head fell away and the body slumped to the ground. The se was a little gruesome but I was able to ha a lot better than when I first started fighting. In an instant, I released all of the simultaneous [Light Ward] panels I had going. I had grown a lot. I looked around for any other monsters... But no, this one was alo seemed.

  [You have defeated a Ducard]

  [Novice Magian has increased from level 11 to level 12]

  [Light Magic has increased from level 10 to level 11]

  No spells this time, just the bonus to Magic Forbsp;that I got automatically from the level. I must have been close to advang my magian css because this thing didn't seem all that difficult. I walked back over to the carriage and climbed my way back up. Surprisingly Bel was sitting up there waiting for me.

  "Hey," Bel said with a smile.

  I sat o her and looked back over the area I was supposed to be keeping watch over. "Hey, how long have you been waiting here?"

  "Not long, I heard something so I came to check it out. I caught the end of yht."

  I ced my fingers with hers and leaned against her gently.

  "Are you okay?" she asked.

  "Yeah, I think so. I'm just thinking about how much I've ged."

  "Do you mean the wings and stuff?" she asked while pointing to my back

  "No... well, yeah kinda. It's everything though. It kind of hit me that I didn't... care that I just cut that monster's head off. A few ho I held Cecilia down and fucked her while everyone else had sex in the open. All of that felt... normal, in an odd way."

  She squeezed my hand while I pulled together more of my thoughts.

  "Maybe it's because I don't know much about who I used to be but with how fast everything is ging, I wonder where all of this is headed. We don't have much of a choi going to the capital but I'm a bit afraid of what we're walking into. After finding out about the Order of Lilith, I'm afraid our aight lead to catastrophe. Despite all that, I just finished making another new succubus," I said shaking my head.

  Bel leaned over and kissed my cheek. "I think you're feeling anxious because there's a lot of things we o deal with soon. The cartography training, Theo and his library, delivering the ore for those mousekin, and whatever demon stuff we're going to get involved with whe there. I think you're just feeling a little overwhelmed."

  I slumped. "Yeah... Damn, I pletely fot about that thing with the Meena and Twill."

  She ughed and ran her fingers down the bay ne a rexing way. "Things have ged a lot for me too you know. I wouldn't dare to say that they've ged in a bad way but that doesn't mean it hasn't e with some getting used to... Hell, my ass is still a bit sore and I never thought I would enjoy anal sex before."

  Chug I squeezed her hand and refocused on the field in front of me. There hadn't been any movement in the grass but I still o make sure nothing slipped by us while we kept watbsp;

  "How have you been adjusting? To your body, to me and Man, and... everything else?" I said gesturing.

  She smiled. "It has been a challe I'm still very happy with how things have turned out. I love my new body and my new magic. For a while, I was unsure if I had made a mistake about keeping my penis but I'm pretty fident I made the right choiow. Especially since I easily hide it if I o. I... really like Man, much more than I thought I would. I was hesitant at first, I was worried that she would repce me or something and I'd be left behind but now I'm really happy she's around. She's bee a really strong support for me, someohat I lean on a closer to. She makes me feel like I have another person I rely on, aside from you of course. Other than our... differen opinion over Matilda and the Goldeh attack, we've gotten along great all this time. I... think I love her too, almost as much as I love you. I love Mimi too of course but I almost see her as more of a younger sister most of the time. She's not very world-wise but she has a ki, it's odd to think that she used to be a monster, she's such a sweetheart."

  I nodded with a smile. "Our little family is growing."

  Bel blushed and turned away. "Do you think... we will get the opportunity to have children someday?"

  I felt my shoulders go stiff at the question and I felt my face warm up. "I'm not... sure. I think I like the idea of it... someday. But I don't know if I would be fortable... being the mother..." I sighed. "I... don't think I ever told you this before but I'm pretty sure I was a man in my past life, the one before I woke up in this world."

  Bel's eyes widened and she turo face me. "Really? You never said anything about that..."

  I nodded. "I... didn't really want to tell anyone... I don't remember my past life but I like this new me. I know I was different before but I don't care. I still occasionally use my shifting powers to give myself a cock but... I think I prefer to be the one beirated most of the time. ...But the thought of being pregnant feels... different. I don't know if that's something I'm fortable with."

  Bel squeezed my hand. "We'll have a long time to sider our options. [Succubus Shifting] doesn't make the inner parts fertile right now but maybe it could be upgraded to give us that ability and I could be a mother for us. If that won't work... maybe Man could bear us children, if she's willing. If not there might be others that are... Either way, this isn't a burden you have to bear alone. If you don't feel fortable carrying a child, then we avoid that route."

  I pulled up the description for [Greater Succubus Shifting]

  [Greater Succubus Shifting - Racial Trait (Succubus) - Hidden]

  The god of ge and your own efforts have upgraded your ability to alter your form. You are now able to alter any part of your appearance, features, or proportions with greater efficy as long as you afford the strain on your mana. Alterations that deviate too far from your true form will be harder to trol and maintain. You are able to shapeshift your tohiess ah and trol it like a prehensile an as well as shapeshift yenitalia. Shapeshifted genitalia are not virile or fertile unless naturally so. For a small amount of mana, you may suppress your true form, an effect that persists until iionally released. This skill and its effects are uable to system identifiana is reserved to maintain this ability’s effects as long as it’s kept active.

  I sighed as I read over the part that mentioned virility aility. "Yeah, maybe..."

  "But I don't think that's the real issue." She leaned against my shoulder and squeezed my hand again. "I don't think you're scared of being pregnant, I think you're scared of being a mother. I think the way you freeze up and rush to deny motherhood over the succubi shows that. You're trying hard to be the leader of the succubi but that's not what the status message that every woman who bees your child sees. No one is told that you're their leader, they're told that you're their mother. I think that when you're ready for it, you should embrabsp;that, especially after all this talk about family."

  I sighed again and slumped against her. "I... don't know if I do that, be that for everyone..."

  "I know." She pulled me in a side hug as the two of us kept watg the field. "That's why I said you should only embrace it when you're ready. You don't have to do it today, or even soon. But I think all of the succubi look at you that way whether you aowledge it or not. Everyone will be ready for it when you are."

  I looked out in the darkness of the hills ahead of me, my soft fireflies gently lit up the area around us. I let out anh.

  NOTE: I've gone bad reted [Sexual Appetite] to remove the risk nancy. It already kind of worked this way in my head but I decided things would make more sense if I was more explicit so I went bad ged a few past chapters. Some of you have asked about the ges in ents or on my discord but I had been waiting t it up the ime it was relevant here.

  For referehis is the new current description of the racial trait:

  [Sexual Appetite - Racial Trait]Succubi appetites are different from that of most other creatures. Rather thaing on flesh and pnts they instead gain sustenance from lust aspect magic siphoned from pleasure during sexual enters. Feeding on this source doesn’t harm the sexual partner. Starving succubi will find it harder to process information, make rational decisions, and think about anything other than sex and masturbation. Level of Sexual Appetite is increased by taking new partners and higher levels of Sexual Appetite increases the time before faculties are impaired due to hunger. Succubi are uo starve to death but will eventually be forced to masturbate stantly until they find a sexual parto sate their hunger. Regur food be eaten but will not affect sustenanless high in magitent. Colleg sustehrough sexual as removes the potency from sexual fluids unless iionally trying to bee pregnant. The amount of lust aspect mana geed by sexual enters is increased by an additional 50% per person involved.

  Saine

  Hello! A bit of an introspective chapter this time! And yeah, the stuff about [Sexual Appetite], a few people had actually noticed the ge in prior chapters and replied to old ents about it a while ago, oops! I try not to ge things that have already been posted here other than typos but this was kind of a major thing that would impact the story if I didn't address it so I kinda had no choice if I didn't want to write about babies yet. On a slightly funny note, I had actally called the protagonist of my other story Lilith! Boy did I feel dumb. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed reading!

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